Face my Fears – Takuyo Kawachin
Date and time5 – 28.8.2021
“What fears do you have?” That was a question from a therapist when I was attending some sessions last year while I had my own crisis.
I was surprised at the unexpected question, but I have started thinking about my answer since then. At first I did not think I had any very clear fears but the therapist felt that my frustration, stress, anger and way of thinking or reactions could come from the fears that I had deep inside.
“I am afraid to fail”
“I am afraid to be shamed”
“I am afraid not to have control”
“I am afraid to be misunderstood”
“I am afraid not to be needed”
“I am afraid of the reactions from my parents or family members”
“I am afraid to lose my loved ones”, and so on.
In the end I realized that I had full of fears in me.
As a foreigner living a foreign country, I am fighting every day not only to adapt, understand, and be respected but also ultimately to survive.
Then I live among my own fears without knowing it. Or does it matter where I live? Or does this apply to everyone? At least I am not alone in feeling this way. Are we the same? Consciously or unconsciously, do you feel any fears?
This time I decided to make a series of paintings with the theme of “Face my fears”. I painted something that I have avoided, something that I am not good at, something that is not my style of painting, something that shows my fears.
This is a challenge to myself.
Moreover I painted with completely different painting style from how I used to paint. I would like to share what lies deep inside of my mind, in order to show that I am actually a part of you.
Language: Finnish, English
More about the artist:
I am a painter, photographer and world traveller from Fukuoka, Japan. Currently I live and work in Helsinki, Finland.
I began to be interested in art since I moved to Seattle, the U.S. and met various artists in 1995. I began studying painting and photography in San Diego, California. Since then, I have pursued art as the direction of my life.
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